The Weight Of What's Gone: Words & Thoughts From A Grieving Heart | Grief Quotes & Poems

by Jenna Lowthert

how unfair it is, that i have to live the rest of my life, without you.

This one hits home

i made a wish today. a wish that you are free of pain and at peace. a wish that you would visit me in my dreams. a wish that you somehow know how much I love and miss you. today, i wished for you.

My wish everyday

when we grieve for a loved one, we also grieve for ourselves and the sadness of knowing what we lost. they’re gone, they’re not coming back and we are left here to miss them.

we replay our last words over and over again. always wishing for just one more chance to hear their voice and i don’t think that the longing to speak to them, just one more time, ever truly goes away.

grief is the shadow that follows you around everywhere you go. some days it is barely there. some days it is all you can see.

when we have to say goodbye to someone we love, we aren’t just saying goodbye to them.. we are saying goodbye to our future lives that we never imagined them not being a part of.

they say that grief is the price we pay for love.. but what they don’t tell you is that sometimes the cost is so high that we never truly recover.

am reminded of you in the voices of strangers that sound like you. in the familiar scent of the places we used to go. in the songs that play at the perfect timing. you are somehow everywhere that i am in the moments when i need it the most and i think that in those moments i am meant to be reminded of you because your soul knows just how much i miss you.

losing a parent is not just a moment of sadness. it’s a lifelong adjustment to our world as we always knew it now forever changed.

and sometimes the missing them hurts more than the saying goodbye.

your memory will always be the heartbeat of my soul.

my heart is banking on the fact that i will see you again.. i have to.

think of me but not always with sadness. think of me and all the moments we shared. i live in your heart. i will always be there. smile for me when you see those stars in the sky, i spend my days watching you from way up high. think of me in the moments that make your heart soar. through the joy in your life, remember me more. dry those tears and clear your view. look for me in the little things i left behind, they will always be a part of you. when you think of me, please don’t think of me in sorrows, i will be with you for all your tomorrows. for in this life, we are intertwined.. forever through our hearts and minds.

i think that when it is all said and done.. after we lay them to rest and the people start to leave. the flowers start to wilt, and the sympathy cards stop coming. the check-ins lessen and the world just keeps on turning.. it’s like they die all over again and i think a piece of us dies with them.

the hardest part wasn’t just the loss.. it was the learning to live without them in a place that doesn’t feel like home anymore.

there are moments when i still reach for the phone to call you.. just to hear your voice. but i know that if i did, it wouldn’t be you on the other end.. and it hurts all over again. i hate that you’re not here. i hate that i can’t hug you. i hate that i can’t tell you all about my days. i always find myself wishing for one more moment with you. once more chance to tell you just how much i love you. one more laugh at all the things that only we thought were funny.. and it hurts all over again.

when we lose a parent, we don’t just lose a loved one. we lose all we have ever known. the ones who raised us to be who we are today. a vital piece of our world goes missing and we ache for it back. and no matter how old we are, we still feel so lost without them.. we still need them. but through their loss, the strength we show on our grief journey is the reminder of the influence that they continue to have on our lives.. and always will.

i reach for the phone to call, like i always used to do. for one single split second, i forgot that you wouldn’t be on the other end. then i remember.. and the silence is louder than any sound that i’ve ever heard.

you were the best of the best. you were the heart of our family. you were the rock that we stood on. you were the glue that held it all together. and nothing has been the same without you.

when you lose a parent, you lose the person who knew you before you even knew yourself. a piece of your past goes with them.. and a piece of your future, too.

i carry this homesickness deep within my heart. wherever i may go, nothing will ever feel like home without you.