Julie Chan Is Dead

by Liann Zhang

finding motivation is impossible when the mere idea of existing feels like a punishment.

Please, please, please help me God. Muhammad. Vishnu. Buddha. Zeus. Whoever’s listening. I swear I’m not picky. I’m just desperate. I’ll do good. Give to charity. Be a kind person. I’ll pray to you every day, once an hour. Anything! Please give me a sign.

No God would listen to a sinner like me.

“I’ll never be applauded for mediocrity because I’m not a stereotypically beautiful white girl.”

We’ve all sacrificed. But some people sacrifice less and get more. And other people work themselves to the bone and get scraps.