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All I know is the thought of doing things with him made my skin crawl. That’s not supposed to happen. I’m supposed to want sex. I’m supposed to be sexually active and a total deviant and be all nom nom for the cock. I don’t think I’m doing the right kind of gagging over it.
Now, normally, I do my best to be sweet Xander. Like a puppy. Or a kitten. If I’m cute, people will want to keep me. But I never learned how to share as a child, and now, a filthy little gremlin lives inside me. And seeing that man’s hands on Derek? The gremlin is activated.
Because Derek is my real-life Prince Charming. Now, if only he’d do that part where he sweeps me off my feet.
“What are you gonna do, Daddy Derek? Gonna message them all to leave your poor little Xander alone?”
Derek steps in close, all body warmth and a fresh wash of citrusy cologne as he leans down by my ear. “I really hope you’re planning to put clothes on before dinner.” “I don’t know what you mean. I’m wearing clothes.” His groan is rough. “Let me rephrase. I’m going to need you to put on something where I can’t see the outline of your cock.” “Why?” I turn my head so we’re nose to nose. “Does it make you uncomfortable?” “Only one part of me.”
“These guys think we’re friends?” I clarify, focusing on them and not on all the ways I’m deficient. “We are friends.” I send Derek a glare out of the corner of my eye, which only makes his smile wider. “Whatever assumptions they jump to about us are on them. We know what this is.” “A two-year unnecessary torture session?” “Exactly.” He grabs my hand and kisses the back of it. “Now, stop overthinking it and be yourself.”
“I’ve been waiting my whole life for you. Just you. I’m not going anywhere.”
“Seven, Molly, Madden, Rush, Christian, Gabe. Those men are all in your life. You’re not alone anymore, Xander. You’re not waiting for your person. You’ve found them.” His pink tongue swipes over his lips. “And you?” “I’m already yours in all the ways I can be.”
“We’re back on the no-talking rule.” Derek laughs, and for a second, that sweet, happy man flickers behind how turned on he is. “Is it turning you on when I talk to you?” “Too much.” “What about it is working you up? My voice? Me telling you that you’ve got the prettiest hole I’ve ever seen? Or …” He presses a second finger inside. “How greedy your body is for me? How ready you are to be fucked by me?” I’m ready to sob. “All of it.”
when the fat head of his cock presses to my hole, I’m so eager I try to thrust back onto him. Derek grabs my hip. “We need to be kind to your little virgin hole,” he warns, right by my ear. “I’ve got a fat cock, and this isn’t going to be easy.” My eyes almost roll back at how Derek can be his same considerate self while talking like that.
“Please.” I’ll do or say anything to get him to push inside already. “You have no idea what your begging does to me, bug.”
“I don’t know if you know this, but I sort of have abandonment issues. Just a tiny bit.” I swallow roughly. “I’m always so convinced that people are going to leave me. Maybe it’s time I trusted someone to come back.”
“Thank you for waiting for me,” he whispers. “I’m going to spend forever proving I was worth it.” Derek doesn’t need to though. “Dare-bear, I’ve always known.”
