From my end, I know that my feelings are real. I know that when I look at Xander, I see a man who makes me happier than I’ve ever been. That I’m attracted to him, yes, but I’m also growing really strong feelings for him. Feelings a lot like love. On his end, I want to believe he feels the same way. I know that Xander doesn’t think I’ve done anything wrong when it comes to us, but I also don’t know how he feels about me, specifically. And if it came out that his feelings only existed because I was some kind of safety for him, that would be uncomfortable.
