I had to learn to turn to God as best I could and when I could. I had to learn to find him in the midst of trials as well as nerve-racking silences, to discover him and find his will behind all these happenings, to see his hand in all the past experiences of my life, to praise and thank him and ask his blessing on all those faces that crowded to memory (when there was no face to be seen each day except those of my guards), to ask his pardon for my many failures then and now in the interrogations, to promise pardon and to seek to forgive those I sometimes felt were persecuting me, and to ask at
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