I can only describe the experience as a sense of “letting go,” giving over totally my last effort or even any will to guide the reins of my own life. It is all too simply said, yet that one decision has affected every subsequent moment of my life. I have to call it a conversion.
So simple yet I imagine it is at once a complete conversion as he describes. The death of the self and the burth of a vessel of the Lord. An ego death but with a powerful rebirth
