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by
Bre Shadae
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April 13 - April 21, 2025
“I can get lost on this peak easily. It was my favorite place. Now it has moved down to second since nothing can compare to the home I made between those thighs, but it’s still beautiful.” I blushed at his words.
“I don’t require you to be like me. That’s what I fuck with most about you. You are who you are no matter what. Honestly, I do some physical exhaustion every day because it keeps me grounded. Adrenaline helps me set up my day, and when I am running, I’m organizing my thoughts. I work out enough through my job to help with that, so when I’m home, I don’t need to. It’s more for mental clarity than anything else.”
“I don’t have anything to hide, Le, but the last thing I want you to be is nervous or awkward around me. I've been through something, and I’m sure you have been, too, but I’ve worked hard on not allowing that to define me. Ask me whatever you want about it but I would hope that you want to get to know me beyond that.”
“I’m not a victim of my story. You aren’t either. Life happens to all of us. Every day, we get up with the power to choose different. Being mad at the world gets you nowhere. We all have had some fucked up shit happen. I didn’t tell you to make you feel bad for me. I told you because I want you to understand that I am more than my
bad choices. It’s important to me that you know that. But also, in dealing with me, you have a right to know exactly what they were.”
know what God promised me and I stand on that. You call me crazy, but I just have unshakable belief in the beauty we can have together. That bullshit was all in the past, Le. What we have is different.”
“You may not get it, but I promise I do. We've been through so much shit, and we were made for each other. We are just two jagged pieces that fit together perfectly,”
No matter what I had been through I was worthy.
Stop second guessing your gift. I was made for this.
None of that mattered because what I truly loved was Prince and who he was to me: his calming presence and his stubborn nature. I craved him physically and mentally. I felt tears fall from my eyes, and I swiped them away before they hit his chest. I missed him, and he was right next to me, and I couldn’t fathom that. I missed our intimacy, and I prayed that this project didn’t last too much longer because I wanted things to go back to how they were. Knowing Prince it would just be the next thing. He was so determined. I didn’t want to be a brat and make it all about me, but they didn’t tell
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“No, Prince. I fell in love with you.” She whispered. Her words caught me so off guard that shit choked my chest. I was a gangster through and through but what was between us felt different.
“Without fear? My feelings for you scare me shitless.” She admitted and sat up. The difference in warmth made me feel so
“Don’t say that Prince. You are not Superman. You cannot save everybody from everything. She needed to see that her father, with all due respect, wasn’t shit. You were young, too, and working out your own stuff. You probably didn’t even know how to be what
she needed.” I tried to hear her words.
“She deserves more than what I have given her. Yes, the security of it all was important. I busted my ass to make sure my kid had everything they needed, and she didn’t have to work for anything, but I forgot about us at times. I didn’t invest in the time we needed to spend together to keep us close. Money is made to be spent. They ain’t printing no more time. I wish we would’ve done more in our younger days but I can’t get that back. All I can do is start now.”
When that woman loves you, that’s all she really wants. That
had to believe in this love we had.
I had to give her space to process. I knew what pressing her too hard would lead to.
When I was sinking inside of her, which was a definite to the way we were ending our night, I needed to know that her mind and heart were connected.
As much as my heart raced from the thought of this love, the assault that Prince put on my body made my eyes flutter closed, knowing he would get me home safely.
couldn’t see shit after I realized what he had done while I was sleeping. He loved me.
“When I met you, I knew, but I never would have thought you would climb into my heart the way you have. I knew it was worth breaking down every wall that you had to experience the beauty of the person you are. Yes, you were guarded in a way that I never experienced, but earning your trust has been worth every moment. The beauty of you being stripped bare in front of me I will never take for granted. I’m here telling you I will go through anything. I will run through those walls any day and every day because what you have added to my life is something that no one can match. Yes, I plan to ask
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“Chaz, just hear me out, cuz.” I stopped him before he left the room. “Love arrests you, cuz. Trust me I know. When you love somebody, and I mean not that surface shit, but when you really breathe into that person and you can’t sleep if the things between you and them are right. When you can’t function unless you know that person is okay and safe. Fuck finishing sentences. Le Monroe completes my life, and even if I was mad, there is no one on this earth that can give me the feelings she gives me. Replacements only piss you off because no one can touch you like that person does. No one can make
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She could get every fucking ounce of emotion I had in front of the world.
“If it’s not okay it still is, Le. I don’t care what we have to go through. Nothing is changing my mind about
“I just know. All we got is hope, and if you don’t have enough, I have enough for the both of us. It’s going to be times when you will have to hold me up. Let me do this for us. Give up all the stress of what will happen because no matter what we will still be together. If you need me to say it again I will.”
“Come on, sis’. It’s time to go.” “Priest?” I said dumbly clearly seeing who he was.
“I can’t allow my sister to walk herself down the aisle, can I? You look beautiful by the way,” he complimented. I nodded my head because I knew words would only make me cry. I realized we never talked about it, but I remembered Prince walking Satisa down the aisle. Now, Priest was standing in the gap for me. That let me know I was not only marrying a great man but I was marrying into a great family. I never could have imagined that God would do this for little ol’ me.
It was what he was called for and I was called to love him completely. I
I stepped up to the altar and he joined hands with me. His touch gave me both reassurance and warmed me. I looked at the hands I loved and they gave me the power to try to clean up even if for the moment. I wanted nothing more than to pledge my love for him in front of everyone. To let it be known loud and proud. He looked into my eyes and communicated so many things. I took a deep breath and the minister began the ceremony. He was my forever. Someone I believed in down to my toes. He was everything I could’ve asked for wrapped in the sexiest specimen alive. I looked into his eyes ready for
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