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Jahquel J.
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August 18 - August 26, 2025
“I tasted her, Core… slept on her fucking stomach all night. She not going nowhere now. If she wanna leave, she need to be prepared to wake up to me watching her sleep again.”
“’Cause you were fucking groomed. I know we all had a crush on Angelica’s fine ass, and said we would smash, but we were teenagers, Mav… she was in her thirties. The little ass shorts she would wear, and how she would always pay extra attention to you, that shit wasn’t right. Not when you just lost your parents, your life was shifted, and you were confused.”
She quickly turned around, and he held my face kissing my lips, and grabbing my ass. “Thank you,” I said when we finally broke away from our kiss. “For what?” “The hug. You don’t like hugs, and you hugged me.” “I don’t like hugs, but I like hugging you.” He kissed me on the neck and then turned to leave. “You not giving her ass no groceries. Wonder, the disrespect don’t fly with Caselli’s.” “I’m not a Caselli yet.” He winked. “You wanna be, right? At city hall you said.” I smiled. “Really?”
She went to run out the room, and I pulled her back onto me. I searched her eyes. “I want to make you happy, Stevie. Want you to have everything you’ve always wanted and deserve. I’m not perfect and I know I’m a lot to some people… even crazy to some. Promise me that you’re not going to leave me.”
Whenever I was nervous, anxious or wanted to fuck something up was when my hands got to rubbing together.
“I’m here, Maverick. I can promise you that I’m not go—” “Don’t make promises you intend to break.” She grabbed both sides of my face and kissed my lips. “I don’t intend to break this promise. You have to meet me halfway. Don’t do things that will push me away… okay?” “Yeah.”
“Your body is fucking beautiful, baby.” “Really?” I smiled. “Yeah, come in here.”
Duke laughed and I looked over at him. “Care to share what’s so funny with the class, Duke?” “I ain’t never seen you like this with a woman. Boss, you wanna be in Steve-o’s skin, and you not even like that.” “She’s special… ain’t no one like her.” I watched as she laughed with the museum’s manager as he walked us through the museum. He nodded his head in agreement. “You struggle with feeling like you don’t need love. I’m telling you that you need it, and you need her. She makes you a better person… calmer. Makes the house lighter.” “Heard you.”
“Stevie?” She quickly turned around and then jumped back when she saw me on my knee. “Mavie, what are you doing?” “Baby, what else it look like I’m doing.” She slowly walked closer to me. “I mean, I know what you’re doing… but why are you on your knee doing it?” I looked down at the box before staring up into her eyes. “You are what home feels like to me, Wonder. My house has never felt like home until you came. I wanted to ignore how I felt about you, but I couldn’t…. you wouldn’t allow me to. Always there with that smile on your face, being you. Baby, you are you without any apologies. You
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“I want to hear you hum me to sleep while rubbing my beard every night. You got me fucked up, I can’t even sleep without you next to me now… this started out one way, but I want it to end another way… Stevie, will you spend forever with me… never leave me?” Her face was soaked as she stood there, kneeling down in front of me. “Maverick Kojack Caselli,” she started. I pulled away from her quickly. “Why the fuck do you keep making up names, Wanda? That ain’t even my middle name… I don’t have a middle name.” She snorted while laughing through her tears, holding my face. “I want to make up names
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“I don’t want you to question where you fit in my life, Wonder. I told you where I want you, so let me come home and you not in that bed again… we gonna have a problem.”
“Nigga, you just said fuck my marriage?” “What?” the other man nearly hollered. “Mens, I ain’t never say no shit like that. I’m happy for you and Mrs. C. That shit is beautiful.” “Our marriage or her?” he questioned. “Fuck… Mens is this a fucking trick question?” He leaned back. “Depends … answer it wrong and I got a trick for yo’ ass.” “The marriage?” “Answer it like we playing jeopardy.” “What is the marriage?” “Ding ding… you good for now.”
“I’m saying it because I think you are ready to be my wife. Forever ain’t shit that I ever believed in until I met you. I want forever with you and I want to take care of you. This house has never had love in it, and you came in and brought that shit with you. The staff loves you, Wonder. You brighten their day when you come down humming or giving them a canvas that yo’ ass never finished but got them looking at it like it’s a deeper meaning to it.”
“Wonder, if you told me this was all too much for you, I would respect it as long as I don’t lose you. I don’t ever need no muthafucka, but you… I need you.”
Maverick was gentle with me, as if I was the most precious thing in the world.
“Because you may not believe in forever with me, and even though it would kill me, I would always make sure you are good.”
“We all have to live with the actions of our decisions, Wonder.” “What actions?” “Imagine living your life and your ex-girl hits you up to hang out. Homie excited because I mean, look at you… fine as shit. He rushing to meet you and then I clothesline him as he’s running out the door to meet you. Wrap the wire around his neck and ask him what his favorite color is while he’s slowly losing consciousness.” “Why are you asking him his favorite color?” “Small talk… rude as shit to just choke the man out and not make small talk… I’m a menace, not a monster.” He crossed the room and refilled his
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“So, you don’t be fucking Killian anymore?” He shook his head. “Nah. The minute I made my intentions clear with Skyler and Jeffie I ended it with her. I deleted her number and haven’t reached out because I want those two. I want a family with them. It’s easy when you know what you have and the future you could have. Straighten up and fucking end communication with her, or you gonna not only lose your wife, but your fucking best friend, too. If she could cut her mother off and choose you, you can do the same.”
Can’t front like he didn’t make me laugh and I slightly enjoyed his company the time he was around me. We bonded on our dislike of Morgan, and he had to pretend to be his security.
When Wonder said she groomed me, I was offended and pissed because that wasn’t the case. As I listened to her talk on this phone, I was feeling differently, and I didn’t like how that shit felt.
“I don’t think you can do it, Wonder.” She looked down, and I lifted her face, and kissed her lips. “I know you can do it, and I can’t wait to witness everything that you do. You gonna be fucking great, Mrs. C.”
I broke out in laughter, and she stared at me crazy. “Zoy, I can promise you don’t have to worry about me getting at him.” She was confused. “So, you want to meet him?” “Why did you just call me a stupid bitch, Zoy?” “Menace, I never called you that… you want to squash the beef, so I think it’s only right you meet him.”
“We do this shit together… me and you. We’ll figure this shit out together, Wanda?”
“So done, Wonder. I hurt my boo’s feelings, and I don’t like that shit. It was toxic holding on all this time, and my loyalty is to you and Jeffie.”

