In other words, I’d been completely, totally, and utterly played, and I was too fucking stupid to have seen it. He wasn’t my hero, but the devil dressed up as one who slid in at the opportune time to “rescue” me and get everything instead.
Oh for fucks sake. You were not played. YOU used him. Sure he was game, but you initiated AND pushed. You are making up stories in your head. The fear based fiction in your head is NOT truth.
