He could not have explained why but he knew that what happened next mattered enormously; he could not have reasoned it out in front of judge and jury, but it was a fact to him, same as his own blood and the light in which it lived. What happens here, what I choose to do, matters. He was not an innocent, nor did he fool himself. He knew that grace and redemption could not be traded, and we had to live with our life’s failings the same as with our own face.
