Why do I feel this way if he’s not dead? she says, why do I feel it in my chest all day, it’s there when I’m asleep, it’s there when I wake in the middle of the night, I feel as though something’s dying inside me, that’s what it is, I’m afraid that what’s dying inside me is the part of Daddy I hold in my heart, that’s what makes me so afraid, I want so very much to keep him in my heart but I don’t know how.
