Troubled Waters

by Zee Reneé

I was kind of hurt by her passing because she had become my favorite eater in less than twenty-four hours, but there had to be more where she came from.

Damn she ain’t even do nothing

“Fight back. I told you I was coming. Tell me who ain’t getting they deposit back.”

These stylists gonna learn

I was a firm believer in retaliation and violence was the answer almost every single time.

His death is not on my hands, ma’am. The most I can tell you is sorry for your loss.”

My mind kept going back to how the two of us would be together on some Queen and Slim type shit. Fuck Bonnie and Clyde.

Nigga in love

“The fuck is a pernt? Point five? This mutha’fucka said eight pernt five. Dumb ass accent!”

😂😂😂😂

“Congratulations to you two. That bubble gum, bubble gum, in the ditch ass ring. But if you like it, I love it,”

“You trust me, Cen?” I nodded, looking down at my arm. He used his index finger to lift my chin for our eyes to meet. “Eyes on me. It’ll make it easier.” His words gave me goosebumps as I looked back into his eyes. They only dropped for three seconds as he slid the needle into my vein with one stick. It was so quick, I didn’t have time to process it. Kylo added on the capsule before taping the IV.

Nigga a nurse too

A nigga will catch arthritis in my wrist from jacking off before I rush you into fucking. I can wait, so take yo time, love.”

“Fuck respect. A nigga be wanting you in my space. Crawl in my fucking skin. Invade my privacy every time if that means I get to be close to you,”

say the same shit ‘bout you.” “How’d you know my middle name?” “I’m a stalker, baby. I keep telling you that.”

Leaning up, I put him in a tight headlock, quickly twisting his body to the right until I heard his neck separate from his spine. Then, I threw his ass smooth off the cart.

Idk who worse…

“I’ma be yo first and yo last everything. Welcome to death row, love.”

😂😂😂

neck until he reached my ear. “Baby..” I moaned as my stomach tightened even more. “I..I don’t know what’s happening to me. What do I do?” “You having an orgasm, love.

The only person that knew I hadn’t eaten pussy before was BB and it probably would stay that way. Innocent had nothing to compare my head to, so fuck it, we both were about to learn. Damn, I hope I ain’t trash at this shit.

😂😂😂

“On Nova, Innocent, I’ll kill you if you even think about giving this shit away. You belong to me.”

There is no body. I didn’t bury her. I cut her up in fourteen pieces. Fourteen because that’s how many times I’d let her slide from the time she went from my shit list to my hit list. If you would like to know where parts of her body are, I can direct you there, sweet girl.

Damn Nova….

pain is part of overcoming.

As I applied butter to the burn on my knuckle,

Black ppl and the belief that butter goes on burns 😂😂😂

“I just wanna thank all y’all niggas for coming out. I wanna say, too, that it’s somebody down here that’s musty as fuck,” I made my lips touch my nose as I looked at the people surrounding us.

😂😂😂😂

For me to still be here lets me know without a doubt in mind that God is real and the calling He has on my life is bigger than what I can see right now. I had to fight.

Black men could cry. Black men could feel. Black men could be depressed. Black men could have moments of weakness. Black men needed a shoulder. Black men could heal, just like everybody else. So, fuck it, a tear a day keeps the pain away.

are. And, oh I forgot, please let our baby be pretty, God, please. I know I talk about everybody else’s kids, but please, man. Let me make it.

😂😂😂…a nigga is worried

I don’t care if we were in Pre-K. I remember, bitch, and I will seek revenge.

Everybody’s time was up. Behind Innocent, I was willing to remove the air mutha’fuckas needed to breathe.

Gatorade. “Which Final Destination was your favorite?”

😳 😳 😳

Emotions are not reserved only for women. It is okay to be an expressive black man without feeling weak.”

speaking. “I just wanna thank y’all for coming today, man. Frank Amiri Junior Lewis is now resting in fish heaven.”

Parker, why you come in some Crocs? All y’all dressed ugly. Even your son.” I paused, looking at the little ugly nigga as he chewed on a teddy bear. “Well, never mind. It ain’t the outfit. Y’all just make ugly kids. I thought the first lil’ nigga was ugly, but this one take the cake.

😂😂😂

These niggas were both so peaceful that didn’t shit bother them, not even me. Talking shit was how I expressed my love for them. Their kids were still ugly, though. I did mean that.

My best advice for people that are struggling is to hold on. I know what they did. I know how they hurt you. I know that person may have left you alone, but you’re here. You’re not your past. You’re not a failure, nor a mistake. God got you. Wait and trust Him. Keep trusting. Keep fighting. Keep pushing. Know that you’re here for a purpose and on purpose. You got this. You are so strong. You. Are. Loved.

“Within you, my soul found its missing piece, Innocent. Thank you for showing me that there is beauty on the other side of Troubled Waters.”