I understood, as I was leaving and heading out farther west, that this was probably actually not going to be the last time I did it. I kind of admitted that maybe I was mentally ill and it was something that I was going to keep doing. No matter what I did, I could never become the person that I wanted to be. And I just shut off the part of my brain that thought about you and your mom and Rube and his mom and I just reset.”
