“I’d been feeling poorly for a while, even before I went on the show. I didn’t know what I was doing with my days. I found it hard to plan for the future. I kept thinking, why bother when we’ll probably be dead in twenty years, maybe fifteen. I think probably all of us must have been very unhappy, otherwise why would we have done that to ourselves? I know we told ourselves that we wanted to live peacefully, but I think we were looking for new ways to make ourselves miserable.
Kind of the thesis? Everything is nihilistic but they needed to find community - like the two friends (Btittany and Donna) who were successful, because they had each other and didn't care about "winning"
