Count On You (Taylor Family Saga Book 1)

by Kami Holt

I’d never been able to cum from penetration. Instead, I’d sneak away and use my toy as soon as he went to bed.

What kind of punk ass nigga makes a baby with his cousin’s girl then stands back and watches another man raise his child? I knew you were a bitch-ass nigga, but this takes the cake.”

Talking shit while being on the floor leaking was crazy work.

“Naw, I don’t want the proper call center voice. Talk to me in that deep ass Toni Braxton voice you were using with ol’ dude.”

“Every time I see you, you have a frown on your face. The only time I see you smile is when you’re talking to your patients or staff. I’m a very observant nigga, and I can tell when a bit—I mean, a woman isn’t being fucked properly.”

Discouraged wasn’t even an accurate enough word to describe my feelings at that moment. All I wanted to do was curl up into a ball and cry. There was no way I could be this unlucky in life.

Here I was trying to understand his feelings, when he couldn’t care less about mine.

“I only want the truth, lil’ baby. Tell me what’s on your heart, not what you think I want to hear.”

“My granny used to say it all of the time. Whenever we wanted something, and it seemed as if we’d never get it, she would say God’s timing wasn’t ours. Right now, it feels as if He’s denying you something you want when, in reality, He may be withholding it from you because it’s not the right time. It doesn’t mean that you’re being punished or you’ve done anything wrong. It’ll come when it’s meant to.”

Normi: I changed my mind. Can you come back? I smirked when I read her message. Of course, I wasn’t surprised because her eyes told me she wanted me to stay. Me: I’ll be there

Black women were created with a unique beauty that didn’t require any additives.

My own mama left me, so it was hard for me to trust anyone else to stick around.

No offense, but dating is exhausting. You constantly have to consider someone else’s feelings and make sacrifices and compromises to keep the relationship strong. None of that interests me. I don’t want to change who I am or how I dress. I don’t want anyone projecting their disappointments and childhood trauma on me. All I want is a few good nuts and some peace.”

I mean real, infallible love. The kind of love that makes you want to be better. The love that has you doing things that are outside of your normal. The kind that you’ll kill for. The love that will make you want to shut the world out and only focus on the person.

I want to be with a man who loves me so deeply that he would never do anything to disrespect me because hurting me is like hurting himself. I want a man who will go to bat for me and remind me of how strong I am because sometimes I forget.

My next man needs to be infatuated with me. I mean, borderline obsessed with everything that comes with me, flaws and all.

“You walked away too easily. When you love someone and they hurt you, it leaves a scar that’s difficult to heal, even with time. You weren’t like that with her. From the moment you discovered Tyrell wasn’t yours, you started moving differently, as if a part of you was relieved that she’d messed up.

“I was too busy trying to make everyone else happy that I forgot about the most important person. Me.

“I’m not mad at you at all. Truthfully, you hit me with some real shit I probably needed to hear. Although I may not agree with everything you said, you gave me a lot to think about. I want you around, and I’ll respect your boundaries until I’m able to meet your terms.”

“One of these days, I’m going to leave this earth, and you’ll regret not spending time with me.

“Umm, Puma. What are you looking for?” I watched as she searched through the closet and then under my bed. “I’m trying to find out where the hell your mind went because you’ve obviously lost it!” She continued to rummage through my dresser drawers.

“You’ve got to stop thinking that you’re a burden to people.

“Life and death are in the power of the tongue. If you speak negativity over your life, then that’s what will come to pass.

“I don’t need perfection; that shit is unattainable. I want your heart and nothing less. Communicate with me so I can fix whatever is broken. Don’t run from me, and most importantly, don’t lie to me. I’m tryna be the first nigga to love you the way you deserve, but I’ll be your worst nightmare if you play with my heart.”

“You want my attention so bad, don’t you? If you want me to bless you with this long John, all you gotta do is say that, love. All this fake beefin’ is crazy when we both know the truth.”

“Don’t ever be afraid to call me on my shit. If I’m not loving you the way you need to be loved, then I’m failing as a man. Your voice matters to me, Normi

Your love reminds me that real blessings take time.

I finally got me a Mr. Make It Happen.”

“Don’t tempt me. I might be willing to take a charge behind that dick.”

You can either become a product of your environment, or you can become a solution.

“She’s trying to play hard to get, but I’m wearing her down.” “No, you aren’t. It’s not my fault God gives the best dick to the dumbest fools.”