Count On You (Taylor Family Saga Book 1)

by Kami Holt

Life wasn’t fair, and this pain in my chest wasn’t something I would ever get over.

Our sex life wasn’t spontaneous or exciting at all. Marquise didn’t believe in pleasing your spouse, and he rarely lasted more than six minutes on a good day. I

Talking shit while being on the floor leaking was crazy work.

“Not yet, but you never know what the future holds. You might need a nigga like me to fuck that frown off of your face.”

“I’m fuckin’ witchu, love. You do have a point, though. I do have a lot of shit on my plate. However, if you ever get rid of yo’ nigga and want to know what it’s like to cum on a dick instead of a plastic toy, come find me. The name is Tycen, by the way. Mr. Newell is my father. Stay pretty, love.”

“I feel broken. Women are designed to have children, yet it seems to be the one thing I can’t do. I don’t know if He’s punishing me, or He doesn’t think I’m good enough to be a mother. Either way, I’m empty inside.”

“Delayed but not denied.”

“My granny used to say it all of the time. Whenever we wanted something, and it seemed as if we’d never get it, she would say God’s timing wasn’t ours. Right now, it feels as if He’s denying you something you want when, in reality, He may be withholding it from you because it’s not the right time. It doesn’t mean that you’re being punished or you’ve done anything wrong. It’ll come when it’s meant to.”

My heart struggled to create boundaries in this situation, but I’d be damned if I allowed them to think they could control me.

Women settled for the bare minimum in relationships because they wanted to be loved so badly. What they failed to realize was a man who loved you would never treat you that way.

No one would ever have the opportunity to come in between me and my freedom. They would meet their maker before their plan would ever see the light of day.

“I’m done trying. It’s too painful, and the recovery is non-existent. Everyone goes on with their lives, while I’m still here grieving the loss of a child I never even got to hold. I can’t put my mind or my body through that again.”

The next mothafucka who played with my heart wouldn’t live long enough to tell anyone about it.

My mother groomed me to be a servant, so I thought you were supposed to endure pain in order to be a good woman.

“Oh yeah? Were we soulmates when you were fucking that nigga in my bed? You could have at least got a nigga who can fit into a magnum instead of those little ass condoms they used to pass out in health class. You gotta do better, love.” The embarrassed look on her face told me everything I needed to know. However, I no longer cared about what she had going on.

wasn’t one to give second chances, because that only gave people the idea they could take advantage of you.

“I haven’t been fucked properly in years. I just want you to make me feel good, that’s all. No overthinking, no regrets. Fuck me like you hate me, then make love to me until I can’t feel my legs. Can you do that?”

“You ever heard that saying, ‘be careful what you wish for’? I’m more

than capable of providing you with everything your heart desires; the question is, are you ready?”

I’m sure I can handle whatever you’re dishing out, and if I can’t, I’m gonna try my best to take it like a big

I’d never craved another living soul as much as I craved her.

Pleasing her turned me on so much that I almost came after her second orgasm. She said she needed to know what it felt like to be fucked by a real nigga, and I was determined to make this a night she’d never forget.

“I’m ready, baby. I want to feel you inside of me.” Fuck. I could already tell baby girl would be nothing but trouble. The good kind, though.

“I’ma fuck around and nut in this good ass pussy. I hope you know it’s a wrap for you and any other nigga. You can’t give this good shit to anyone else,”

Shit, I’m low-key tryna see what’s up with her mean-ass friend. I’ll mess around and fuck her dreads loose while she’s over there tryna act like she doesn’t want me.”

“Do you miss this dick? ’Cause I damn sure miss the way that pussy hugged me tight. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since you left me.”

“Fuck. This shit ain’t got any business being this good. And you had the nerve to try to keep this good pussy from me. Shit!”

Baby girl had a gold mine between her legs, and she had me fucked up if she thought she would keep this shit away from me.

I’ve come to your rescue twice, and I’ve made you cum more times than you probably have in your entire relationship. We’re way past strangers, regardless of what you tell yourself.

I guess she planned to be fucking me for the rest of her life because I meant what I said. The next man who even breathed in her direction might want to make sure his soul was right with our Lord and Savior because they would be getting a first-class ticket to Sky Daddy.

Love is a gamble. You’ll never be able to predict whether you have a bad hand or a good one until you start playing.

When at first you don’t succeed, dust yourself off and fuck his friend. Or whatever Aaliyah said.”

Black women were created with a unique beauty that didn’t require any additives.

“Yes. It took my relationship ending to realize that no one has ever cared about my heart. It’s always been about what everyone else needs and who they need me to be. I have never been the priority for anyone, not even myself. I want to change that now. I owe it to myself to protect my heart because no one else ever has.

“Have you ever been in love? And I’m not talking about the situation with your ex, because you weren’t in love with her. I mean real, infallible love. The kind of love that makes you want to be better. The love that has you doing things that are outside of your normal. The kind that you’ll kill for. The love that will make you want to shut the world out and only focus on the person. You see, after my breakup with Marquise, I came to the realization that I’ve never been loved, and I’ve never truly been in love.

I want the kind of love you see in the movies. Where the man will stop at nothing to have the woman he knows is made for him.

I want to be with a man who loves me so deeply that he would never do anything to disrespect me because hurting me is like hurting himself. I want a man who will go to bat for me and remind me of how strong I am because sometimes I forget.

I want dedication and exclusivity. I need a man who will go the extra mile to make me happy. I want to fe...

that I never have to worry about snooping in my man’s phone. I desire a man who loves me and wants to show me off whenever he can. My next man needs to be infatuated with me. I mean, borderline obses...

refuse to deal with another man who can’t satisfy my needs. I won’t settle for mediocrity ever again. I want that all-encompassing love that goes beyond understanding. So until I can experienc...

Everybody went on with their lives while I was stuck in this matrix of overwhelming pain.”

want a love that renews my faith in people. I want someone I can depend on no matter what it is. Someone who will support my pipe dreams and tell me I’m pretty, even when I look like Felicia from Friday.

Don’t allow your fears to hold you back from the love you deserve.”

“Life and death are in the power of the tongue. If you speak negativity over your life, then that’s what will come to pass.

Normandee’s presence calmed my soul in such a powerful way. Lil’

The way he pleased and took care of my body only fueled me to want to give him every part of me without any reservations. I trusted him in a way I’d never trusted any man with my body as well as my heart.

I could rest in his arms, knowing he craved my love as much as I craved his.

With Tycen, he proved his love with his actions and the way he continued to show up for me. I couldn’t afford to miss out on this kind of love, and I had no intentions of it.

This was my lifeline, and I’d do whatever to protect them from anything that could ever try to harm them.

lady means everything to me, and I’ll silence anyone who ever tries to interrupt her peace.”