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“Forget Me Too” by MGK with a scowl firmly planted on my face until I eventually pass out.
“Jefferson, Pete, Ian, and Harrison.” He skips Bradshaw and for a moment I think it’s because he knows I already met him. “Their corresponding code names are: Jobs, Badger, Colt, Wasp, and Bones. My code name is just Sergeant.”
“And your code name is Bunny,”
“I don’t want you as my second. None of us want you on the squad, Bunny. You couldn’t even keep your prior first alive. What was his name? Jenkins?”
“You don’t want me on your squad because I won’t die as easily as your last second. What was his name? Oh, I guess it wasn’t worth remembering because I sure as fuck don’t know it. At least you’ve heard of Jenkins.”
He fists my vest and furiously slams my back against the wall. My head rocks back toward the cement, but instead of impacting on stone it’s cupped by Bradshaw’s hand, his knuckles taking the brunt of it.
“You’re as good as dead,”
“Not if I let the enemy kill you first,” I spit back at him. Bradshaw’s eyes widen with disbelief. “I’ll bet that’s how your last second died, saving your ungrateful ass. If I die, it’s because I’ll be taking a bullet for you too and that fucking sucks.”
“I’m sorry about what I said about Achilles. It was out of line.” The words hang between us and stretch the silence until I’m certain he won’t reply.
“I’m sorry.” He hadn’t spoken for so long that his voice startles me. I stare at him blankly. Bradshaw doesn’t glance at me as he speaks. “About Jenkins. I shouldn’t have dragged his name through the mud.”
“Was he the only one who knew you were a little reaper deep down?”
“You don’t think he was just trying to fuck you?” A flash of heat spreads over my cheeks and my stomach twists with rage. Bradshaw lets a couple low chuckles reverberate through the air between us. “Oh shit, you two did fuck, didn’t you? Did you trick him like you tricked me?”
“I hate to tell you this, but you two are on the night watch,”
“She’s not Abrahm. We need her,” he states. I shake my head. “No, she’s not. And she’ll go worse than he did. She doesn’t care if she dies or not. She’s trained to be a suicidal death machine.” Eren’s eyes widen. “You make it sound like you ca—” He cuts himself off and lowers his head, shaking it. “Watch it,”
“Jesus, will you two fucking knock it off!”
Something inside of me yearns for him.
“If I were an enemy, you would’ve been dead ten minutes ago.”
“Bones? What the fuck, you’re supposed to be back at base. When did you—” “Shut up,”
Maybe it’s because of the pure shock to my system, or perhaps I’ve been drugged, but I stay still and lie with him. If I’m being honest, maybe I’m just tired of being lonely. My jaw flexes at the comfort of his body and what it does to me. I allow my eyes to close. “You do things to me, Bun,”
“My dick is covered in your blood,” he confesses against my ear. His words send goosebumps over my skin. There’s only one reason why my blood would be on his dick and that’s if he beat himself off after our encounter on the cliffside. “Sadist,” I whisper and, for some reason, I’m smiling and turned on at the thought of him jerking off with my blood.
“I couldn’t control myself. You like the darkest parts of me and I wanted you all over my cock.”
“Have I seen the darkest parts of you?” “Not even close.”
“You went somewhere in your mind. You were like an empty shell,” I pry, and his mouth firms with annoyance. “Every time you talk, I want to shove my cock into your mouth. Stop fucking pushing me or I won’t be so nice.”
“How about you wash yourself off of me, Bunny? I only like your blood when it’s fresh.”
“Spit on it,”
I want him to fill me up so fucking bad. I’m going straight to hell when I die. For all the death on my hands. Further down, if there is something lower than hell, for what I’m about to do with the devil.
“I want you to break me,”
“Hold that cut tight, Bunny, and don’t move unless you want a knife up your pussy.” My body stills and I can’t conjure any words before he’s cutting a slit in the crotch of my pants.
“Don’t worry, I left your underwear, you’ll need those to hold in my come.”
“I’m fucking you because I want to show you who’s in control between us,”
“Yet I’m the one on top, staring down at you as you pleasure me like I’m your master,”
“You’d rather I dominate you completely then, huh? Fuck, you’re sick.”
“Who’s pleasuring who now? Don’t worry, I’ll show you who’s in charge here, Bunny. After all, you are my second, aren’t you? You’ll listen to every order I give you. And I expect you to follow them.”
“I want you to submit to me, my little Riøt snake.”
“That was… holy shit,”
“I’m glad it wasn’t you,” I admit, perhaps because in the dark I feel like I can. “He wouldn’t have been able to survive without his second.” The way I didn’t survive without mine.
I’d rather sleep naked next to Eren than fifty feet anywhere near Bradshaw.
The only underground squad that has earned their cards was Warsaw, and that was ten years ago.
“You keep yelling and making people look at us and I’ll really give you something to scream about, Bun.”
“I want to dominate you. I want to break you into a million pieces and make you answer only to me. I want to keep you as far away from my squad as possible before I ruin what’s left of you. Because if you don’t leave, that’s what’s going to happen. I’ll break you, just like I break everything.
want to run my thumb over her bottom lip and tell her she makes my chest ache when she looks at me so tenderly. I want to tell her that the nights I laid beside her were the only ones I slept peacefully in fucking years. I want to tell her that I fucking missed her.
“Are you trying to scare me? It’s not working,” I whisper against his temple. “Trust me. If I wanted to scare you, you’d be scared. I’m only getting you excited,”
“Now, I want you to think long and hard about who’s eating you from the inside out while I lap you up. I want you screaming my name. I want you to be as possessive as I am of you.”
“Stare into the mirror and watch me consume you. I won’t stop until you're trembling in my arms.”
Bradshaw gives me a shit-eating grin and pushes on the inner wall of the cabinet.
His voice is midnight rain,
“There is no life without you. There wasn’t one before, there sure as fuck won’t be one after,” he whispers. His eyes narrow with misery. “I love you, Bunny.”
“Leave me behind, Bradshaw.”
“It’s the monster in me,” I manage to say between hushed moans. His brow raises. “That craves the one in you.”
“Was he good to you?” I can’t look her in the eyes as I ask. Guilt has been my friend for three terrible years. She kisses my cheek and forces my chin to face her. “He treated me like a queen. I never wanted for anything.” Oh. Am I too late… “Anything but for you. I could never love him like I do you, Bradshaw. He was good to me… but he isn’t you.”