Leave Me Behind

by K.M. Moronova

As long as I’m by his side, I will follow him to the grave.

It’s her. Eyes bright against her dirt-smeared face. Her dark brown hair is pulled back into a loose braid. I want to run my thumb over her bottom lip and tell her she makes my chest ache when she looks at me so tenderly. I want to tell her that the nights I laid beside her were the only ones I slept peacefully in fucking years. I want to tell her that I fucking missed her.

THEN TELL HER

exactly so just be with HER

another favorite micro trope 🥰🥰

My mind is so damn loud; I let her comfort me. For the first time, I don’t care if others see me in a weak state. I just want her to hold me and continue to brush my hair back from my face. It brings back distant memories of when I was a child, when, for a brief moment under the sun, I was loved.

for the first time since I lost Abrahm, I feel distinct fear enter my soul. I cannot let her die like he did. I will not survive it.

if this book has a sad ending the one time i don’t look up if it has a HAE im gonna crash out

I quickly withdraw my hand from Bradshaw’s cheek, worried that I’m showing too much affection on the field. But Bradshaw’s hand shoots out quickly, grabbing my wrist and placing my palm back against his face. “Don’t let go,” he murmurs.

SHUT UP I JUST WANNA HOLD HIM CLOSE PLS

“Everyone can see us,” I whisper. “I don’t care.”

FINALLY FUCK YEA

gosh hope this doesn’t become a problem

Rats never seem to remember that snakes are hiding in the bird’s nest too.

I can’t hate her. No matter how much I want to. Even for taking Abrahm… And that tears my soul apart.

“I don’t think I can keep doing this,” he says slowly. My brows pinch together. “I don’t think I can continue being Bones. Because Bones is heartless and ruthless. But ever since meeting you, I’ve been anything but those things. When I look at you, I feel like my thoughts are no longer blurry. This dark underworld I reign in doesn’t have to be the one I die in.”

SHUT UP YALL DONT UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE I DO IM VIOLENTLY SOBBING RIGHT NOW HOLY SHIT

“I want a world with you.”

“Do you think we could make it out?” My voice is quiet, but his sad, boyish smile melts the ice around my soul. “Together, our broken pieces can do anything.”

“All I want is to be by your side. In training, in war, in death. I can’t picture myself anymore without you being there, Bun. You linger in my thoughts, in my fears. But mostly, you’re the cause of all the emotions I feel again. I was dead until you tripped on my foot on the plane.”

speechless.

“I’m sorry, Bun, I can’t help how my heart feels. The only thing I know is that I cannot lose you.” He presses a long kiss to the top of my head and I go limp in his arms. “And if you think I’m ever letting you go, you’re wrong. You’re mine. As much as I’m yours.”

“Are you lonely?” I ask, knowing the desire for family but fearing it because of the way I am. It’d be impossible. He chuckles sadly. “I wasn’t.” His voice has an implying lilt. Bradshaw shifts to his side so he’s facing me. “But after you… I feel lonely whenever you’re not around.” His eyes are like ice shards straight into my heart.

okay but he moved her out of the way first that was hot

“You are where my sanity starts,” he murmurs gravely, his jaw setting and brows knitting. He hates to admit these things to me—that much is obvious. But it warms my chest that he shares it with me anyway. “You are where mine ends,”

“There is no life without you. There wasn’t one before, there sure as fuck won’t be one after,” he whispers. His eyes narrow with misery. “I love you, Bunny.”

“Always. I’ve been watching you all this time. Sometimes from binoculars or across the room. Other times from surveillance. I’ve been with you. Each starlit walk you took with him, every small look over your shoulder waiting for someone. For me. I was there. I never left you behind.”

“You should’ve forgotten about me.” Her eyes fill with pain as she glides her hand down my chest. “Impossible.” I take her hand and press it against my heart. “You feel that, Bun? It only beats for you. Bones has been dead for years. I just woke up again when I kissed you.”

“I love you, Bradshaw.” My eyes widen and a throb rolls through my chest. I’d wait a lifetime to hear those words.

sobbing so hard there won’t be more annotations for a min

SHUT UP THE WHOLE TEAM RESCUED HER THATS SO SWEET

“Do not cry for me, love. I wasn’t meant for this world. I am darkness… Thank you for showing me a splinter of the light.” His voice is a mere whisper.

“I love you, Jenkins,” I say with tears streaming down my cheeks. His eyes widen at my admittance and a smile unlike I’ve ever known curls his dry lips. He sets his hand on his left breast pocket and clutches it as if his heart aches. Pop.

“Promise me forever, Bun. You’re where my sanity starts.” I can hear the smile in his voice. “You are where mine ends.”