Leave Me Behind

by K.M. Moronova

“Great. Our psychopath meets his match and now our lives are in their twisted hands.”

She might think I broke her tonight, but it’s she who has broken me.

“Because real life isn’t made of fairytales and sugar drops.”

The next time I see him, it better be through a scope as I’m shooting a mock bullet at his fucking face.

I want to tell her that I fucking missed her.

“Yeah, that’s an understatement, Bunny. You’re fucking scary.”

“And if you think I’m ever letting you go, you’re wrong. You’re mine. As much as I’m yours.”

I love him… I love him, and I’m never going to tell him that.

“There is no life without you. There wasn’t one before, there sure as fuck won’t be one after,” he whispers. His eyes narrow with misery. “I love you, Bunny.”

My home will always be with Bradshaw.

and for the first time in three and a half long years, I feel whole again.

Guilt has been my friend for three terrible years.

“Always. I’ve been watching you all this time. Sometimes from binoculars or across the room. Other times from surveillance. I’ve been with you. Each starlit walk you took with him, every small look over your shoulder waiting for someone. For me. I was there. I never left you behind.”

“I love you, Bradshaw.”

One way or another, I’m leaving this place tonight.

They came back for me. One is already dead for it.

“I’m fine. But I need you two to get the fuck going. I love you. Both of you. Now go.”

I stop at Eren’s side and tears fall like drops of rain from my soul.

“How could I possibly sleep with a bunny running rampant in this hospital?”

“Promise me forever, Bun. You’re where my sanity starts.” I can hear the smile in his voice. “You are where mine ends.”