Leave Me Behind

by K.M. Moronova

“I don’t hate you.”

“I want to dominate you. I want to break you into a million pieces and make you answer only to me. I want to keep you as far away from my squad as possible before I ruin what’s left of you. Because if you don’t leave, that’s what’s going to happen. I’ll break you, just like I break everything. Is that enough? Will you shut the fuck up now?”

“Oh, I knew you were into kinky shit like biting, but I guess you need to learn some manners,”

“Let me show you the kinky shit I’m into.”

The fact that I find it erotic disturbs me to my core. A beautiful, broken man who’s working his dick while telling me to suck it. That’s also why we’re so drawn to each other, because we’re both toxic and cruel. Bradshaw must see the lust in my eyes, because his wicked

“Look, at the end of the day, it’s them or you. Them or your squadmates. I learned the hard way. So don’t let it be you or your squad,”

Rats never seem to remember that snakes are hiding in the bird’s nest too.

Sleep my bunny, your next breath is not promised.

“Either you trust me, or you kill me. I won’t let you keep me as a prisoner.”

We’ll die here together, alone and stranded. We both know it.

A black bullet killed Abrahm. I killed Abrahm.

I can’t hate her. No matter how much I want to. Even for taking Abrahm… And that tears my soul apart.

“Never. I could never. Not you.” Because you make me feel things I’ve never experienced before. I could never hurt you. I could never let you go.

don’t think I can continue being Bones. Because Bones is heartless and ruthless. But ever since meeting you, I’ve been anything but those things. When I look at you, I feel like my thoughts are no longer blurry. This dark underworld I reign in doesn’t have to be the one I die in.”

“When I saw you wearing that dress it broke my heart. I saw what you could’ve been. I want you to wear whatever the fuck you want and be a normal person. Not out here, with bullets flying between us. I want us to be out there in the real world.” Bradshaw brushes the wild strands of hair behind my ear.

“Together, our broken pieces can do anything.”

We’ve both done terrible things for awful people. And that darkness consumes the air between us.

“I forgive you for Abrahm.”

“All I want is to be by your side. In training, in war, in death. I can’t picture myself anymore without you being there, Bun. You linger in my thoughts, in my fears. But mostly, you’re the cause of all the emotions I feel again. I was dead until you tripped on my foot on the plane.”

I love you. I shouldn’t, but I do.

Please don’t be dead. I need you.

“There is no life without you. There wasn’t one before, there sure as fuck won’t be one after,” he whispers. His eyes narrow with misery. “I love you, Bunny.”

“Leave me behind, Bradshaw.”

My home will always be with Bradshaw. I wish I could remember his smile instead of the pain I saw before he left.

“Promise me forever, Bun. You’re where my sanity starts.” I can hear the smile in his voice. “You are where mine ends.”