De Vaux missed the constable more than he could ever say. Would ever say. He loved his children, he respected and admired his wife, and he was properly grateful to his parents, but Jean Montel had been the enduring love of his life, right up to the older man’s death. You couldn’t say things like that. People wouldn’t understand how soldiers could feel about their commander.
tbh, extremely funny to go from "he was the love of my life" to "that's just how it is sometimes with your superior!!! don't be weird about it, no homo!!"
