I think control and love are opposites. Because love requires trust. We only control things or people we don’t trust fully. We can love people or control them, but we cannot do both. So I am practicing loving Abby instead of controlling her, loving my children instead of controlling them, loving my body instead of controlling it, loving my life instead of controlling my life, loving myself instead of controlling myself. It’s still hard. It’s scary for me to trust. But it’s also the biggest relief of my life. I’ve been holding my breath to hold it all together for so long. Trusting feels like
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