guess … I’m also feeling some perfectionism around healing, because I have an assumption that if I had ‘completed’ my healing, it would’ve prevented this painful event and could make me immune to future tragedy. I’m … I’m just exhausted.” I sat with it for another moment. Tears formed in my eyes, and I felt like my three-year-old self seeing my parents fighting in the house before their divorce. “I just want to be okay … it’s hard that you can’t really get that guarantee.”
