If Tomorrow Never Comes

by Allison Ashley

Cancer was a real cockblocker.

There was also the fact that something in the vicinity of her pitiful heart ached with the realization Jamie hadn’t been pining for her this past year.

Regret followed him around like one of those rain clouds constantly hovering over Eeyore, a companion as pitiful as it was unforgiving.

“I know. That’s exactly why you should. We all need one person we can be totally vulnerable around and not worry about being judged.”

Jake works with a lot of women and has women friends, we figured out that being open about his interactions with them is how I’d always feel safe in our relationship. I feel included. If I found out he was intentionally keeping interactions with other women from me, that’s where it crosses my line and the trust I have in our relationship.”

But relationships don’t always have to be about infatuation or overwhelming passion. That stuff fades. Sometimes they’re about security and companionship. I thought that’s what we both wanted.” “I thought it was, too, but I think I was wrong. I want both. Partnership—and friendship—are important. We have that, and your friendship means a lot to me. Though when I think about it, I’m not sure we ever really had passion. Even at the beginning.”

know you’re trying to do the right thing here. You’ve always shied away from things that cause other people discomfort. And if you ultimately decide staying away from Elliott and not talking to Carly is that right thing, I’ll support you. But I just want to make sure you know that no matter how you spin it, no one walks away from this unscathed. There’s something to be said for considering other people’s emotions, but sometimes our decisions are going to hurt people. Sometimes the truth hurts, but is that a reason to hold it back?

Love is messy and inconvenient, and you’ll never forgive yourself if you let it pass you by.

Elliott wanted to leave this world better than she found it. She wanted to share positivity and creativity and help people’s dreams come true, and she hoped she’d have the chance to keep doing that.