I tried to be a mother for a few months, and I couldn’t do it. Capella was such a fussy baby, and motherhood was so hard. If it wasn’t for my grandmother, I don’t know what I would have done. I told her I was going to New York to visit and would be back, and I left Capella with her and never looked back. Motherhood wasn’t for me, and I had worked ten times harder not to end up with another baby inside of me.