Killing Sin: Conquer the One Thing That Is Defeating You

by Karl Clauson

With electrodes attached to her forehead, chin, and scalp, the sleep technician told Lori it was time to begin the sleep study. Panic ensued. Memories of abuse as a child and young woman prevented Lori from sleeping, knowing she was being observed. The subconscious threat of harm scrubbed the study before it could begin. On the walk back to her car, she felt relieved to be out of the room but feared her future. When she told her doctor what happened at the sleep clinic, the response was stark: “Lori, you’re morbidly obese; without a sleep study, I can’t do the bypass surgery, and without bypass surgery, you’re going to die.” Lori’s Body Mass Index was hovering around fifty-eight, which is literally off the chart. Her health was beginning to crumble. She could no longer walk down a flight of stairs to wash clothes. Basic movements were limited. Now on medication for diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, pain, neuropathy, edema, and more, she was facing a certain future; it was only a matter of time, and time was short. Shuffling to her car from the doctor’s visit, she felt the walls closing in and cried all the way home. Back home and desperate, she fell to her knees and cried out to God. “I’m going to die if You don’t help me, and I don’t want to die!” She went on to get honest with God about the crux of her battle. “God,” Lori cried, “my full switch is broken; I can’t seem to stop gorging my body. My excuses and my efforts have blinded me. I surrender my body ...