I felt I could play the role a thousand times and still not reach the end, the boundaries of its world, I felt there would always be more to explore. And the scene that had troubled me so deeply, it had become the scene I looked forward to the most, the transition from the first half of the play into the second, the instant of transformation—the play’s hinge. As soon as I arrived at the theater I could not wait to be inside the scene, I anticipated the music cue, the pool of light emerging on the near darkness of the stage. I longed for it in a way that was almost carnal.
