I began to see in the not too distant future the point at which the emergence would cease and the structure of the work begin to ossify, so that although some movement would remain possible, its essential parameters would be set—even then, I had the sense that I was still too much clinging to the shore. The part, the world of it, continued to elude me, and I knew that the window of opportunity was closing, that I had to make some shift within myself or the role would slip away.
