It was in the aftermath of the miscarriage that the affairs began in earnest. They were usually brief, they never threatened to encroach upon our marriage, although at times they could take me by surprise, I could become more absorbed than I intended. They were an expression of restlessness rather than discontent, of that I was certain. Still, it became increasingly difficult to find my way back to Tomas, and I was aware that the situation was becoming fraught, the apparatus of our marriage growing rickety, things could not continue in this way. I assumed Tomas knew about the affairs, perhaps
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