Just Right (Bliss Peak #1)

by Shon

“…But someday you will be old enough to start reading fairytales again.” — C.S. Lewis

He took care of me like no other and I would always return the favor.

I knew nostalgia and grief had a unique effect on everyone so I let the moment linger as long as it needed to.

“You’re the most fascinating woman I’ve ever met. I love how brave you are.”

We want you to be ours. And being ours means we want to take care of you. Spoil you. Give you whatever you want.”

“Give us the summer and we’ll give you everything.”

Women like Goldyn Ambrose didn’t move through this world without leaving a mark on people. And something told me the mark she left on us would be hard to forget. It already was.

It felt like missing somebody who was never mine. Grieving something that never got a chance to exist.

“Your lips are so fucking pretty. You’re so fucking pretty.”

“Sin—” I gasped, trying so hard to catch my breath. Every breath in left me before it could settle in my lungs. I’d never been kissed like this. Never knew I needed to be kissed like this.

“We can’t avoid goodbyes no matter how hard we try, honeybee. Life is unpredictable, so even that person you think you got forever with could be gone in the blink of an eye.”

“But ain’t that the beauty in it?

Wouldn’t you rather have something good for a while than to always wonder about it?”

Seeing him happy made me happy. And seeing the loving touches he shared with Goldyn reminded me of how lucky I was to fall in love with someone who had so much love to give.

There was something so captivating about her presence that made me want to soak up every ounce of attention she was willing to give me.

“How does she taste, Sin?” “Perfect.” “You hear that, Goldyn? You taste perfect.”

And thank God, because when Sin lifted me in his arms and kissed me, I was gifted with a glimpse of heaven.

but I couldn’t bring myself to be self-conscious about it when Sincere looked at me like I was something exquisite he’d been waiting to sample his whole life.

“I’m gonna be so good to you,” he whispered hoarsely. “So fucking good.”

“You feel so good,” we said together. If it were possible, his voice was even more strained than mine and that turned me on even more. I loved knowing the effect I had on him. And I loved showing him the effect he had on me. It was dizzying and empowering and so damn addictive that I knew I would never get enough.

The slight burn in my thighs was overshadowed by the pleasure creeping into every cell in my body.

I felt like I was floating somewhere in space and every stroke Sincere gave me momentarily tethered me back to earth.

“Please don’t let me go,” Sincere begged. His hips slowed and he stared down at me with renewed emotion dancing in his eyes. “God, I need you so fucking bad and you don’t even know it. Just know I’m not letting you go. Not without a damn fight.”

“Swallow every last drop, baby. Show Goldy how good you can be for me.”

Without hesitation, I claimed his lips with mine, kissing him until my lungs burned with the need for more air.

“You agreed to be mine, and I take care of what’s mine. Why do you think Sin gets whatever the fuck he wants? The thought of you spending my money and it making you happy turns me on. That’s the beginning and end of it.”

“If you’re sleeping in my bed and I’m not doing anything to make sure you have everything you want and need, then I give you permission to call me a deadbeat.”

loving the way she filled the space between us. Like she’d done it a million times before.

Because it felt like Sincere’s dick had been made for me and I didn’t know how I could ever go back to not having it.

I wanted to write songs about the things his tongue made me feel. The way his dick made me believe in heaven. The way his body made me happy to be alive.

“You’re so fucking perfect for us, Goldy. Don’t ever forget that. This is exactly where you belong.”

Every time she opened her mouth to speak to me, it felt like the sun was shining directly on us, regardless of whether it was night or day.

But not this…this all-consuming protectiveness, joy and peace wrapped up in one unnamed emotion every time I thought about her.

“You will always belong right here with us. Fuck everything else.

You’re ours. As long as you want us.”

Nothing could have prepared me for Goldyn.

She owned me in ways that didn’t make sense for someone I’d never even kissed, never even hugged. She’d burrowed herself so deep into my existence I couldn’t remember what it was like to not want her.

Her name left my lips on a sigh, barely audible over the spray of water as cum shot out against my fingers and dripped to the shower floor.

The thought of everything with you turns me on, Goldyn. I love the thought of you getting whatever the fuck you want, even if it doesn’t come from me.”

“Look at me, mamas. The only thing I wanna see when you come for me is your pretty face.”

He smelled like smoke and pine. And he tasted like an answered prayer. I didn’t know how much I’d been craving something I’d never had until I had time to let my lips trace over every inch of smooth skin exposed above his collar.

praise. Because I’ll always find a way to remind you of how amazing you are for simply existing.”

If my grandmother was here, she’d gently tease me for crying, and I could hear her raspy voice as if she were standing in front of me. “I know my grand baby ain’t sitting up here with tears in her eyes.” Then her rough hands, weathered from years of gardening and factory work, would wipe away the tears while she smiled at me. “See? You a’ight. Just as pretty as you wanna be.” A kiss against my forehead. A squeeze against my shoulder. “You still my sunshine. I don’t care how old you get.”

Every day I woke up showered in love I didn’t think I’d ever receive. Life with Sincere, Lorenzo and Romeo was a lot of things, but most of all it was just…right.

Goldyn had shown up and pored light into all the darkest parts of us until all we could do was radiate it. We were good before she came, but she made us better.

Lorenzo was always there. My constant in the midst of everything else in my life changing.