Hollow Hellion

by Jodie King

Trust issues cling to me like shadows, making it nearly impossible for me to show my true self to anyone.

Pain, for me, is not just a beautiful sensation—it's a distraction, a means of escape from the relentless suffering in my mind. It's a contradictory haven, offering both release and peace from the chaos that rages inside me, quieting the urges that claw at my sanity.

“Welcome to Oddity Carnival & Cirque. May your time here be terrifying, if you make it out alive.

“You’ll be whatever the fuck I want you to be, Dolly.”

“Fuck, I love it when you talk murder to me,” he breathes out, a devilish grin tugging at the corners of his lips.

“Love? No, Noir. What I possess for you is far more intense and deeply disturbing. Something that eclipses any form of love, leaving behind only a haunting stain of darkness in its wake.”

Is Hell truly the monster he portrays? He breathes evil yet radiates a beautiful darkness that connects to my soul. Why do I have a feeling this is the beginning of the end and what’s between us won’t stop?

“Run, run, run, little dolly. Run as fast as you can. Because if I catch you, I'll make you obey my every command,” I bite out, the poisonous rhyme rolling off my tongue.

“Sometimes I don't think you're the monster you think you are, Hell.” I just stare at her, my expression unreadable. “Yeah, you're a bit abnormal by society's standards, but who's to say the “normal” ones aren't the real crazies?” she protests, her tone carrying sincerity.

I am a violent asshole, I know this, but if something has happened to my Little Dolly prior to her meeting me, am I just adding to her fucking trauma? Am I just like “them” as she said? I guess some form of guilt is creeping in. Something I’ve never felt before, but it just shows what this girl does to me. There’s a war within myself because it seems like she likes who and what I am whenever we’re together which has me fucking conflicted.

“There is nothing in this life I desire more than you. From the moment you stepped into my chaotic world, you’ve blown my fucking mind in more ways than one and ignited an obsession within me. There’s no fucking way I’m letting you go. You’re the only person who’s ever filled the hollowness inside me with something… Good.”

“Don’t ever feel guilt, because I’d let this entire place burn to the fucking ground just to cover you from the flames. You, my pretty girl, are worth every damn burn I would suffer. With me as your shield, you’re untouchable.”