Going to a remote state in my mind, I stay there. I craft a place where they can't find me. A place that’s safe from the evil and pain I'm going to endure here. The pain I am currently enduring. It's the only way I'll survive, the only thing they can't take from me. I see my father and mother, the restaurant, and we’re all together again. My dad is here and I wonder whether or not I’m still alive. He looks so real, so alive. I want to reach out and touch him but don’t for the fear of disappointment being the sole feeling that follows.
