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Please allow us to celebrate you, Declan.”
“She doesn’t fucking appreciate the shit. You are a damn unicorn of a nigga. Bro, you work for one of the biggest hospitality companies in the world. You mean to tell me, you ain’t never had one slip up? She pissed you off. You pissed her off. Y’all broke up for a couple months. Nothing. No kiss. No touchy-feely. No lady ever caught yo’ eye and you wanted to…”
If she can’t see she got a good dude in front of her, then you can’t fear starting over. Life goes on.”
It was starting to feel like I’d done all of this for nothing. I
This is really sad. No excuse for what winter has been doing
I think it’s a difference between being in an open relationship versus the blatant disrespect.”
comparison is a dirty thief. It robs you of so much, like imagine if I got pissed off at all the girls doing the same styles of wigs I was doing. Me and you work in billion-dollar industries, we don’t have time to compare ourselves to nobody else.”
I stared at the text and wondered if I should respond… but thought against it. However, I did want her to know I’d read it.
sat in the empty seat in front of my plate, trying to mask my anger and amusement regarding Elle’s actions.
knew the type of woman Winter was and the second Declan started to give another woman his attention, she’d want to close the relationship.
Yes. I see that as well
“It does, and your avoidant issues are showing up right now.”
seemed like my body was releasing mass amounts of serotonin and dopamine at the same time, sending me into a different type of euphoria.
“Leave your avoidance issues outside of my door. You don’t have to avoid anything in here. I’m not going to judge you for anything you say or do. I think the last seventy-two hours proved that.”
think that’s what pissed me off the most, honestly. She doesn’t even fucking know what I would have gone for if she’d just talked to me.”
“Oh! There it is. Y’all just moved on and didn’t talk about the issues, and that’s where a lot of your anxiety comes from. I bet if you talked to them—”
“They are yo’ brothers, Declan. Not business partners. You don’t have a signed contract with them. You should be able to talk to them about anything unless you’re not telling me the whole story.”
For the first time, in a very long time, my mind wasn’t wandering.
My chest didn’t feel restricted. I felt completely relaxed and I hated that I had to ruin it.
“Now that I know your secret, are you upset? We can talk about it. I’m not… mad, or weirded out, I just wished I’d known.”
She’s crazy
I needed to get away from her before I said something I wouldn’t be able to take back. “You know what… I am, Winter, and it
Winter fucked me up with what she’d said and if I thought our relationship wasn’t over at the start of her asking me for an open relationship, I knew the shit was over now.
Just being around her was my foreplay and her sitting on my lap had my dick already getting hard. It also didn’t help that she had on the thinnest material, and I could feel her pussy print.
“This nigga does not laugh, smile, none of that, and you got him over here bussing a gut laughing. Yo’ ass ain’t that mothafuckin’ funny. Lastly, neither of y’all are denying it, which means I am right.” Kemba’s lips curved into a smirk.
“Elle, I feel like we are not on the same page, or something is missing. If I did something, I want to know so I can fix it. I know I’m married with kids now, and…” She paused, shaking her head. I grabbed her shoulders. “Grey, we are okay. We cannot get anymore ‘okay’er than we are right now. I really just be wanting to give you and your husband space, especially when he’s here.”
finally know a life without constant heart palpitations, or constant worry, and chest pain. I finally know I can be genuinely happy, in every facet of my life, mentally, emotionally, and sexually. When you’ve been told for so long that what you say and do is never going to matter until you can produce, you kind of internalize it. I have been thinking a lot about you telling me some of my wounds were self-inflicted, and Dymon, of all people agreed. Lately, when my mind is not on you, I replay every major situation I’ve ever been through and wonder if I had of listened with an open mind and
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have been different? I guess it took me lashing out how I did to snap back to reality.”
“And you will never do that to another man, unless I command you to. Do you understand what I’m saying to you?”
It wasn’t the gifts or even the sex, for real, it was the fucking time he was putting in. It was like he was really my man. He texted me sweet messages daily. Sent flowers weekly. He’d come to my house for lunch. I’d even started having dinner prepared for us after work. He’d eat, go home, help Donovan with his homework and put
him to bed before bringing his ass back to my house and sleeping with me.
I’m very disappointed in you, that you didn’t trust me, one, and two, you had all these preconceived notions about what you thought I would think about you. All you had to do was say, x, y, z, me and Declan are fucking. I wouldn’t have done or said anything, but gon’ head girl, or tell me what it’s like. Our regular girl chat shit. Because what you don’t realize is, I know you. You are a very meticulous person. I’m not going to even lie; my first thought would have been that Winter may have paid you turn him out. That’s all. That’s at the top of the list. Way down, on a non-existent list, in
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It would be easier to believe the bad about him, so I could hate him and push him to the back of my mind. I hated that I knew he was just as much as in love with me as I was with him. I’d vowed to never put myself in a sticky situation again, and I’d dove headfirst into quicksand fooling with Declan.
My mind wouldn’t stop flashing pregnant every time I closed my eyes.
“I don’t want no other man to touch you unless it’s authorized by me.”
Diesel also warned me not to bring my old shit into our new relationship.
