Late one night after I uploaded the video, I parked my car in the middle of the train tracks and waited for it to come and just end it all. I could have gone about attempting to commit suicide differently, but I didn’t want anyone to have my car after I worked so hard to fix it. And I knew Ashton would have kept it, so I was going to end it all with the only thing I cared about. It didn’t happen because by some divine intervention, Jagger showed up.
