I’m sorry to scare you, nothing is wrong. I’m just…” What? An emotionally volatile, rage-oholic? Stuck replaying every awful thing I've ever done in my head to remind myself that I don’t deserve to be loved? Confused about what to believe, so I choose to believe the worst? Sick to death of how weak and useless I become whenever Riley touches me, so I erupt in brutal anger and lash out? Hating that I willingly gave him a hold over me, and now I am terrified I can’t get it back? Not wanting to be used by him and turning into this ugly creature that uses him first?
