you’ve told me, it seems pretty clear that your body never forgot. You were physically shaking as you recalled the memories. Think about all the messages your body has been telling you—maybe for years—as you respond to various cues. And your personality never forgot, either—your perfectionism and people-pleasing, your inability to slow down. Even the decision to leave Amarillo and build a life in New York City may be important: It’s been suggested that people with complex trauma prefer living in big cities, because the stimulating environment rewards their hypervigilance.”
