When the person you really like (and maybe one day will love) kisses you, at first all you can think about is if anyone is watching and if they are, do they think you are too fast, or acting too grown, or showing too much affection in public. You wonder if maybe someone will walk by who knows your momma or daddy or auntie, and maybe by the time you get home the story of your first kiss will be family gossip and maybe you will get in trouble because you are not supposed to be kissing anybody— especially not outside, in a park, under a canopy of willow trees.
