Losin' Control

by Ladii Nesha

“You sound weak as fuck asking another nigga where yo bitch at.

“I almost punched her in the back of the head, but that shit started feeling good. Had a nigga feeling feminine as fuck.”

“If I was going to call you anything, I’d call you a ticking time bomb. Your stomach is hanging over your belt, which I’m pretty sure is causing back problems. You’re leaning to the side, and the yellow in your eyes indicates that you are either suffering from liver failure or you drink too much. Either way, your days are numbered, and peppermint tea won’t help you with anything but your breath. What you need is a doctor and life coach. I think they have that over in tent three, and guess what?” Marley plastered a fake smile on her face. “It’s free.”

“And you wonder why yo PH balance be off. All that fucking for food gone fuck up your insides.”

“Death don’t scare you?” “Nope, attachments scare me.”

nothing is really yours. Everything has an expiration date.”

Every man that breathes on you isn’t the love of your life.

You need to practice loving yourself before you allow a man to enter your space. Learn your self-worth first.”

if you didn’t make lemonade with the lemons life threw your way, someone else would.

“I might not be a spring chicken anymore, but I still make the roosters holla.”

I fuck hoes, I don’t cry about them.

“Real niggas don’t use clips, but then again, real niggas don’t have they feet kicked up in the back of Barbie’s camper, so I'm going to try it.”

“Shut up and catch this smoke.” Czar bowed his head and slowly blew a stream of smoke into her mouth. “Soft ass lips,” he mumbled, stealing a kiss, and to his surprise, she didn’t fight it, so he did it again and again until their tongues started to wrestle.

“Nah, wishes are for people who don’t have faith. I wholeheartedly believe that God is going to bless me with you.”

“I don’t know what it is about you, but I’m feeling the fuck outta you.” Czar kissed her neck. “At first, I wanted to fuck you because you got a smart-ass mouth and I like that shit.” He kissed her again. “Now I want to save you.” Czar lightly sucked her ripped ear lobe. “I want to keep a smile on your pretty face.”

your head got so big that you couldn’t walk through the door.”

Social media had her head so big that she forgot her ass wasn’t real, and without makeup she was below average. The name brand clothes she wore came from photoshoots, and she received free bundles and wigs. Tati was so out of touch with reality that she thought she was that girl, but the thing about it girls is they changed with the season. Not only did she nigga hop, but besides a few bands, she didn’t demand anything from those men. No one wifed the pass around. Fake pumping for the Gram had her head clouded, and Czar was honored to bring her back down to earth.

“Nah, you know how I like to fuck, how I like my dick sucked. That’s what we started off doing and it’s nothing wrong with that. Just don’t try to switch shit up after you’ve handed out more pussy than Meals on Wheels.”

“Does this have anything to do with the guy that plays for the Ravens?

“All yall get the fuck out and tell Terri to take Atlanta off the list. I don’t trust these muthafuckas. I go to sleep with a bad bitch and wake up with her brother.” Czar stormed off.

Julius: I’m taking your thieving ass to court. You stole my shirt, fruit, and tastebuds.

Julius: I can’t taste shit but your sweet ass pussy and then you got the nerve to be gatekeeping.

“I sucked the electrolytes out of your pussy, we go together.” “Real bad,” Nova cosigned.

“I’m walking through life with a blindfold on because seeing the world through my own eyes ain’t worth living. I gotta take these dumb ass pills because I’m haunted by your decisions.

Czar sized her up. He took in her pouty lips, her low eyes, and her labored breathing. Licking his lips, he advanced toward her, never breaking eye contact. “I’m hooked like a muthafucka and I’m not coming up off that shit.”

“What do you want from me?!” “I want your fucking soul, baby, isn’t it obvious?”

“I want to own everything from your smart ass mouth to this creamy ass pussy. Who pussy is this?”

I create my own story, which is far better than the one that was written for me.”

If be my peace was a person.

“Julius, you sucked my toes while fucking me from the back, and I ain’t ever experienced no shit like that. Jealous ain’t the word, my boy. I'm unhinged.”

I’ll randomly cry because thoughts of my past still plague me, I’ll push you away even when I want to crawl inside your skin, and some days I'll disappear.”

“The good thing about love is that it’s unconditional. It’s supposed to be tested and strong enough to withstand the storm. That means good, bad, and ugly.

Your roots are rotten, which is why your tree never grows.”

sardonically

“When it rains, I pray you can handle the storm,”

“I need to find other people to hang with because love is in the air and I don’t wanna catch that shit.”

“But it’s your birthday.” “And you’re the best gift I ever had.

“Fuck yo sad ass too,” Czar spat, leaving her standing in the middle of the living room with her heart in her hands while his bled on his sleeve.

“You don’t have enough money to bet me nigga, and you don’t have enough lives to outrun me,”

“When I’m into a woman, everything about her is my favorite thing.”

“I apologize for you not being loved correctly as a child and that you never learned how to reciprocate it,”

“I apologize that every man in your life left you, and it chipped away at your insecurities every time they walked out the door. I apologize that you weren’t taught the necessities of life before you started a family of your own and passed down your toxic childhood traits to your children, causing you to see them as competitors versus a lineage to carry your name.

I apologize that you won’t witness me in this season of winning.