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I’m not going to let a toy be better than me.
I should be ashamed. I should go to church on Sunday and repent for my transgressions.
Madeline makes me want to be unbelievably bad, and maybe it’s time I deserve to be something other than good.
I’ve never been patient about anything in my life, but with her? I’d wait a thousand years if I had to.”
“You’ve done so much for me. For the team. For Liam. For us. You organize volunteer hours for the guys. You stop to sign autographs for anyone who hands you a piece of gear. After our accidental wedding in Vegas last New Year’s, your level-headedness kept us both calm. I know we’re where we are today because of your ability to get us to communicate,”
“You’re so selfless, all the time. Helping you with something you’re clearly passionate about isn’t a chore. It’s something I’d be glad to do. You’re a good man with a kind heart, and if learning sign language is what you want to do, I’m honored to play a small role in it.”
“Next time you come to a game, don’t show up in someone else’s jersey.”
“I’ll buy you a hundred jerseys with my name on them so you never run out.”
“I might be nice, Madeline, but I can also be very persuasive.”
“She’s trying to get to you right now. It’s just taking her a little while. Traffic, you know?” “Wow. That might be the deepest thing you’ve ever said, Mav.”
I remember the days when I couldn’t leave my bed. Maverick would come to my apartment, sit next to me on the comforter, and not say a word. He’d stay there for hours, only moving to bring me a bowl of soup that he hand-fed me so I could put something in my body.
“Look at us. Two fucking simps for our women. You taught me right, Huddy.”
“I want to. You do so much by yourself, Maddie, but I’m here when you need to tap out for a minute. I want to help. Let me help.”
“Go on, Golden Girl.” “Golden Girl?”
“You’re the brightest thing in this room. The brightest thing in every room.”
She’s beautiful all the time, but seeing her and Lucy laugh through dinner makes my brain do this stupid thing where it pretends there’s a world out there where she likes me as much as I like her. And, fuck, do I like her.
“When you call us friends, it makes the things I’m thinking about you—the things I’m feeling for you—seem wrong.”
“What kind of things are you thinking about?” “Kissing you.”
“Doing more than that.”
“I’m not kissing you unless you tell me to, Madeline. And if I do, it’s not going to be a one-time, casual thing. It’s not going to be a two-time thing. It’s going to mean something, just like it did on New Year’s, because I’m done pretending like I haven’t thought about that night every single day that’s passed. I have. Excessively. But I don’t act on it because I don’t want you to hide from me again. I don’t want to mess this up. You mean too much to me.”
Her lips pull up into a grin. She lifts her chin, a dare there, before she says, “Fuck it,” and crashes her mouth against mine.
The planets realign. The earth stops rotating, and this is different from how we kissed on New Year’s.
I don’t know what that please is asking for, but I’ll spend the rest of my days trying to find out.
I’d tether myself to her if I could.
“What do you like, Madeline?”
“Yeah. That’s nice,” she whispers. “That fucking word,” I say.
“You can touch me however you want,” I tell her. “I’ll like anything you do to me.”
Ruin me, I almost say, but I keep that to myself.
What’s embarrassing is how my body is reacting to her. It’s like I’ve been starved, and now I’m being fed. My cock is aching in my pants, and it’s my turn to groan when I find her hard nipple.
“I know I want this. I want you, Hudson. So badly. If it’s not great, we’ll work on it.”
“So fucking beautiful.”
“That’s perfect.” “Better than nice?” “I hate you.” “Do you?”
“Doesn’t seem like you do.” “I don’t.” She licks her lips. “How could I when you’re making me feel like I’m on top of the world?”
“We can do better than that. I want to make you see the fucking stars, Golden Girl.”
“Are you going to come for me, Maddie?”
“My sample size is very small, but no one’s ever wanted me in a way where they lose control.”
I want her more than I’ve ever wanted anything in my life. I want her again in an hour and in a month down the road. I want her body and her soul, and I’d get on my knees and beg until I had them.
“Hudson,” I murmur. “I want you like I wanted you the other night. I want more than the other night.”
“I want to make sure I’m not reading this wrong because I’ve been dreaming about it, Maddie. For goddamn days.”
“I like to think I know what I’m doing. When we’re together, I’ll make sure you’re enjoying yourself. I’ll make sure you finish first, and I’ll make sure to talk you through it when I’m fucking you.”
The worst I’ve ever had, because I’m obsessed. Fucking feral, and everything about her—from the tufts of hair between her legs to the faint scars low on her stomach—is fucking divine.
“What would you say if you found out it’s one of my favorite things in the world?” I grip her thighs and push them open. “What if I told you I’d stay here all night if it meant getting three orgasms out of you? What if sometimes, I like this better than sex?”
“Tell me again how nice I am, Maddie. I can’t wait to fuck that word right out of your mouth.”
“I love that you’re a good boy with a heart of gold who also wants to be a little bad.”
“So fucking gorgeous. Are you a two-for-one girl, Maddie?” I touch her clit with my knuckles, and she unravels again. “Fuck. You are. Let me get one more taste, sweetheart.”
“Open your eyes, Maddie. I want you to watch when you take me for the first time.”
“This right here—being with you? Touching you? Breathing the same air as you?—is good enough for me. Everything else is a bonus.”
“It’s the worst thing in the world.” Hudson kisses the top of my head. “But it’s worth it when you find someone you enjoy spending time with. Who treats you with respect and loves you like you love them.”
“I really am going to have to fuck that word out of you,” he says.
“You know, you’ve gotten pretty damn sarcastic since you started hanging out with Liam. I’m not sure I like it.”
