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June 26 - July 9, 2025
Adam Dix was an amateur in every sense of the word—this was one guy filming videos of himself on his cell phone camera at home in his bedroom. Not some grand, overedited production. And that was the way I liked it. Adam was a relatively unknown creator on the OnlyShots website, and he’d never shown his full face.
When I walked into the kitchen, I looked up and locked eyes with the homeowner: a tall guy. A tall, very attractive guy. A man with dark brown, nearly black hair, striking cheekbones, and plush, ruddy lips. Lips that seemed familiar, somehow. Very familiar. Almost like I’d seen them before.
I like people who talk too much. Please, talk more, so that I can recede back into my shell and just listen instead of scrambling to figure out what to say?
Yes, I prefer being alone. But I’m also super lonely, every night before bed. And you’re also the nicest person I’ve met in a very, very long time.
“Give me something pink and fruity and delicious,” I said. “Something pretty and tropical to sip while I’m on the hunt for smart-guy dick.” Jax snorted. “Is that the plan for tonight?”
I didn’t mention the most personal part of my sexuality journey: that I’d still never had sex with another guy. I’d never so much as kissed another guy, even though I’d wanted to since I was a young teen and I was twenty-eight now.
And while my hangover was feeling better, I certainly was in stage two of confused cock syndrome.
Adam didn’t seem to realize it, but someday soon, he would most likely end up finding someone to fall in love with. Then he’d stop uploading videos online, and I’d just end up as a blip in his memories: the flirty guy with a blue streak in his hair who once licked cum from his hand like a desperate freak.
“Well, I think you’ll have fun studying. Maybe I can help write you a tutorial book. The Ways of The Cock.” “I want The Ways of Chase’s Cock,” he said, and I tried to ignore how much I really liked that response.
“Chase, I thought you said you didn’t like people spending the night.” Yes, but the thought of you leaving my side right now kind of makes me want to explode, and I can’t figure out why.

