Before her hypomania ripened to rotten, there was a delicious sweetness to her thoughts and life. She had a massive amount of unearned confidence in her ability to do anything that struck her fancy. She made big dick energy look flaccid by comparison. It embarrasses her now to think about being this way, but her amped-up swagger gave her the absolute freedom to do whatever the fuck she wanted without permission or second-guessing herself, without worrying what anyone would think, whether it was good or bad.
