“For me, to be happy is a weakness, because it’s something that can be taken away. I know that because it’s happened to me before. But if I never allow myself to feel happy, then I have nothing to lose. No way for my enemies to strike at my heart. Better to suffer, better for people to remember my failings, because I can handle those blows. I don’t know if I can handle people attacking my happiness, because I’m already terrified that I don’t deserve it.”
look at ths book calling me out personally. therapy will be fun this week ;)
