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No. You were mine when we were kids, and you’re mine now. You’ll always be mine.
But you are my sister. My dirty little sister who’s going to touch herself in front of me. Show your big brother what you sound like when you come.
Because I can’t talk? Because I can’t tell you how fucking breathtaking you are every second of every day? Because I can’t breathe without being near you? Someone like me… I’m different—I can’t be normal for you. I can’t defend you without using my fists or my bat, and I can’t touch you at the same time as telling you that you’re everything to me. I can’t whisper sweet nothings into your mouth and I can’t fucking marry you because not only am I your brother, but I’m defective.
Believe me or don’t, but you’re the only person in my life, and you always have been. And when you take your last breath, or I take mine, that won’t fucking change. You. Are. Mine. My goddamn property, do you understand?
She likes to be scared, and I guess the entire theme of this holiday is to be scary. Fine, I’ll be scary.
It’s official. I, Malachi Vize, hereby swear to be an ass man now.
I wanted to be her first kiss, her first love, her first dance at Homecoming. I wanted to hold her hand and kiss her whenever I wanted. I was never normal enough for her—the freak without a voice.
“You w-were my first. I pr-promise. My… first and… my only.”
stay against the wall, my hands behind me, and try to think of everything possible to make her stay. Willingly. I want Olivia to choose me. Please choose me. Nobody ever chooses me.
Something weird is happening to me. My chest is sore, and my eyes feel immense pressure, and they’re… wet. I think I might be crying for the first time in my life.
“Olivia,” I whisper clearly. “Please don’t leave me. Please stay with me.”
I’ve never made love before. I had no idea what it felt like.
I kiss her—the only girl I’ve ever imagined giving my heart to. It might be a little black, a little jagged around the edges, and my mind might be a little wild, but she owns them.
