By mid-January, I’d come to the reluctant decision that I couldn’t marry David after all. No matter how much I loved him, I wasn’t sure I was ready so soon on the heels of divorcing Sonny. David moved out to live at the Beverly Hills Hotel for a while, but we still hung out constantly and he told the producers that he would still help with the first season. David was always taking care of me. I think he thought I would change my mind and maybe I would have. I wasn’t sure of the decision. I wasn’t sure about lots of the decisions I was making, because I still had no practice making them.
