I sank my face into the faded quilt and screamed myself hoarse, begging God to explain to me, just this once, why it had to be him, and why it had to be me. And the price of it all seemed insurmountable. All those men and women and children. All of it, for idium.
although i wish she could smart her way out of this, she really doesn’t have a choice if her mothers life is hanging over her head. she seems more human like this tho, so even tho it’s frustrating to know she will betray him, I get why she is making these choices
