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My hands fist, and I accidentally crush and drop the spider. It lands right in a small puddle on the metal.
Enter PTSD
“He’s asleep, son. Thunder makes spiders sleep. He’s okay. Will we go get some ice cream now?”
Awwwwwww
I wish I could choose you and fight the poison in my brain, but I can’t. I’ll see you again one day, but hopefully not anytime soon.
Well, goddamn
I lift the hand with the spider until it’s at eye level. “Hi,” I say in my squeaky voice. “You’re my new best friend.”
My. Fucking. Heart.
Rex is my only friend now. He’s silent. So am I. Mommy hates that I don’t talk to her anymore, but I like keeping things to myself. Everything I say always results in a slap across my face or her yelling at me. He’s the only one who talks to me now without using words. My best friend. My protector. My hero until Daddy comes home.
It’s all coming together….
“Elise did say he was in here. How much did you pay her?” “Fifty,” he replies. “Is the bitch still breathing?” “Barely. I made sure she took more than enough to kill her though.”
Bruh…. This is fucking wild!!!!
“Hmm,” he hums, grabbing something from the table. “The kid has a voice. Elise showed us those videos of him, remember? We just need to drag it out of him. What’s in this?” He lifts the pointy thing I’ve seen my mommy play with, and his friend shrugs. Pain explodes in my arm—I hold my breath and close my eyes as the men chuckle. “He’s stubborn like his mother.”
Ayeeee yooooooo!!! No fucking way!!!
Then everything within me screams as he slowly, one-by-one, pulls Rex’s legs off. He tells me to count,
Bruuuuuuh!!!!! What in the actual fuck!!
“The father?” “Dead. Suicide,”
Fuuuuuuuuuck!!!!
Weeks later, when I go to my first new home, they keep me in my room because I make their kids sad since I don’t talk.
Jeesh…. Kinda harsh!!
When I turn eight, I don’t get any birthday cards or a cake like the other kids in the orphanage—I sit under the bed with a drawing of my spider and imagine a crowd of people singing happy birthday to me, and we blow out candles that I draw. I close my eyes and make a wish. I wish someone would choose me.
God fucking dammit!!!!!! If I wasn’t team Malachi before ….
The lady who’s the boss of the building glares down at me. “What are you doing?”
Hiding from your evil ass bitch!!!
I’m happy with the way I am. It’s peaceful and quiet, and I like it.
I feel this….
If they send me back, which they probably will, I’ll run away again and make sure they’ll never find me. Because I’ll be in heaven with my parents.
Jesus fucking Christ!!!
Olivia. My new little sister. I couldn’t protect my mom or Rex, but I think I could protect her. I will protect her. Because she’s mine.
Oh. My. God. I’m in love!
I like staying in my own corner and observing my little sister from afar in public, then as close as possible while we’re home. Not in a creepy way—Mom
Suuuuuure it’s not😏😏
I want to see him bleed.
Oh….ok! Totally normal response…
I’m imagining him in a body bag. Bloodied. Ripped to shreds. Diced and minced and pulverized. No longer in existence. No one will ever be good enough for Olivia.
Sweet but a little excessive 🤣🤣
I’m furious right now. I might kill our parents and make it look like an accident. I could set the house on fire, trap them both in my dad’s office, and be Olivia’s shoulder to cry on before I inevitably somehow make her fall in love with me. Fuck. I just said that.
Lololol sounds like a plan…..
I blink, realizing I’ve frozen on the spot and my parents are staring at me like I have two heads. I mean, I do.
Hahhahahaa I see what you did there….
I’m repeating myself out of desperation, but I don’t care. If they don’t let me do this, I’ll end up in jail or something for murdering any asshole who comes anywhere near Olivia.
At least he was prepared… lol
He’d look better dead. So would Mom. I’ll carve their bodies and stack their limbs into a suitcase before setting it on fire.
This is devotion…. Swoon 🥰🥰
I silently hum as I slip my tongue between her lips. She’s not kissing me back, but that’s okay.
Cause she’s sleep!!!!! Hahahahahaha!
Just to add to the pressure behind my eyes, I slip my hand between us, pushing two fingers in, needing some of my cum to be inside her. I gather more and push it in, until I’m satisfied. She’s going on a date tomorrow with my cum inside her virgin cunt.
Yoooooo!!! Hahahahahhahaha! I forgot how fucking wild he is!!!!! Hahahahahaha!
The music gets even louder, and my skin itches from all the voices. Dad notices. “You don’t need to be here if it’s too much.”
This is making me low key feel bad about the dad….
A fist misses me by an inch, and the guy squeals like a pig as I shove the handle of my bat down his throat, jerking it to break his jaw in several places.
FUCK!!!!!
Run, Olivia. I want to chase you. I want to catch you. I want to fuck you until you scream so loud, you lose your voice just like I have.
Aaaaaand I just came💦💦💦
I’m just… not enough to be chosen.
Oh my god I’m sobbing……
I can hear footsteps, and then my father’s voice is bellowing. “Malachi!”
Not me gasping like I didn’t know this happened… hahahahahah
Warm liquid leaks from my nose as I grab Dad by the jaw and spit Olivia’s juices in his face. Your daughter tastes fucking delicious, I sign, regretting he can now taste her as well. Too bad she’s all mine.
Aye YOOOOOOOO!
But then if she’s a corpse, she’ll be dead. Then so would I. We could haunt our house together.
This psycho 🤣🤣🤣
You’re lucky I’m not putting you back in the basement. “That’s technically kidnapping.” Not my first time.
Hahahahaha
I haven’t done anything wrong, I sign when words get stuck in my throat.
Omgggggggggg I. Love. Himmmmmm
My mom just hit me. So did my bio-mom. Why do they keep fucking hitting me?
God he breaks my heart!!
Just sitting in her mouth. It’s somewhat calming her. Slowly, I grow inside her mouth—I
OK, it’s hilarious that she’s calming down by sucking on his dick like it’s a pacifier LOLOLOLOL
I think of how Olivia screwed me over, and then other days, I regret everything and wish I’d never been adopted by the Vize family—but
😭😭😭
“Tell me why you kept it from me,” he demands, the leather of his belt snapping as he pulls it from the loops of his pants.
Oh shit!!!!
“Mason is dead.”
WHAT??????
Abigail. She knows how to— The door opens after she messes with the handle, making us both freeze. Malachi doesn’t pull out when he sees it’s my best friend; he just huffs and presses his forehead into my back.
Hahahahahahhahahaha!!!!!
“Hey!” Abigail grabs a pen and throws it at him but misses. “Stop fucking your sister! This is important!”
I’m fucking dead!!!!!!!
I jab the screwdriver into his jugular and yank it out then drive it into his fucking eye. He’s dead already.
OMG….. bruh!!!!!
“I don’t know if I can ever forgive you,” he tells me. “But I’ll try.”
OMGGGGG😭😭😭
“Dad,” I say, my nerves taking over when he pauses. I rub my fist against my chest with more meaning than ever. I’m sorry. “I know, son.”
I’m. Fucking. Sobbing!!!!!!!!!
“What happened? I told you not to call this number,” a voice says. The voice of Jennifer Vize. The woman who raised us.
SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP!!!
If someone found a way to remove you from existence, I would burn the world before making sure my soul found yours in the afterlife.
Oh. My. God. I’m starting to leave stains… 💦💦
“There’s no one deaf in our family. You don’t have friends either.” “Shut up, Base.”
Omg I just put this together!!!!!!
I think I like this guy, but I hate Base—he’s
Naaaaah - ya gotta love Base!!!
Base whistles. “As I said, dramatic. Can we leave? I think Kai might kill me if I stand in his vicinity any longer.”
OMG I miss this dude!!!!
“Well, despite his choice of fuck buddy, he’s a good-looking guy.” I chew my lip in annoyance. This guy is insufferable. “He’s my boyfriend, not a fuck buddy.” “Does he swing both ways?”
I. Love. Base!!! Hahahahah
“I’m not leaving my son,” I hear him snap. “I haven’t left his side for three fucking weeks, and I don’t plan to leave him when he’s about to wake up. You’ll need to drag me out.”
Ok I really fuck with dad….
