“But then … you showed up and slashed all of those plans to bits. And I hated you for it. Not only that—I hated myself even more. To make it all worse, I couldn’t seem to stay away from you. You fascinated me. You got under my skin and made my blood sting and crawl and fucking hurt. It made me feel alive, for the first time in my miserable life. So, I found loopholes around my father’s … command. I figured I could fuck you, just once, just enough to sate this obsession, and then I would be able to move on. I didn’t expect what you would do to me next.”
