“I know it seems…” I start. Do I wanna go there? “Seems what?” “Like someone who’s into what I’m into, shouldn’t be all…fearful.” It never ceased to puzzle Josh. You have issues with authoritarian, aggressive men in everyday life, but you want to have authoritarian, aggressive sex? He never judged me, but he did not get it.
It’s a little difficult to understand honestly, but I get it. GUESS WHY. I have mastered my trauma response though. I used to shrink when men raised their voices and got in my face. Now? Now I get in their face right back and raise my voice just as loud.
I haven’t let men rule me for a long time. One day Scarlett will develop that.