They did not say it outright that I would be demerited for the assault. But it feels like they did. My exhaustion is mixed with anger. Anger at the CIA for asking the question. Anger at the criminal justice system for destroying rape kits. Anger at society for victim blaming survivors. Why should I be demerited for the violence that happened to me? In how many ways can survivors be judged, branded, and stigmatized for the rest of our lives?
