I’ve been so lonely for so long, and it just hurts walking out of the door during the day and seeing all these happy-looking people who I cannot relate to. I just want to scream. I want to douse myself in gasoline and light myself on fire just to ruin their day, just to traumatize them, just to make all the normal people see what I have seen. It hurts so much. I try to make friends with people, but they just treat me like I am a last resort.
